I have been trying so hard to be so strong...and today I just couldnt hide it anymore...My morning started off just fine..little annoyed and tired but smooth none the less..that is til I went to check on my puppies and saw they pooped absolutly everywhere...so much so my bathroom was black and so were my white puppies....needless to say that set the tune for the rest of my day....we overdrew our account for the first time in 2 yrs and so I had to pawn stuff to fix it....that actually went pretty well someone gave me a better deal then they origionally would of....I feel awful that we slipped up like this...i still am unsure how we did it but too late its done and now its fixed...but that didnt seem to fix my mood...ive just been in a down upset mood all day....and ive been having such horrible cramps all day as well.....and then on top of it in process of potty training my youngest step son....which hes been doiing good other than he keeps pooping and its driving me nuts...ive dealt with so much shit..literally today that I just cant handle anymore...well..then one of the kids clogged the toilet....the one whose potty training admited to dropping a toy down it????? Anyways I already unclogged the toilet once...but this time it was just the last straw....and it took me forever this time too and i just started balling my eyes out....i screamed and cried at that toilet...i just couldnt control it..Mind you my fiance is out of town for few days so im left here alone pregnant with two puppies and all the kids...so the stress really really got to me today..O and our kitten..well...that was the topper....after i finally got toilet fixed i noticed kitten prints in my shower..shes still very tiny..her mommy died so i took her in...well obviously I went looking for her..today was first day i let her roam the house alone...well after two hours of searching and no signs..my mind messed with me so bad..all i kept thnking was i just plunged my kitten....one the kids drowned her and then i plunged her....and i just bawled my eyes out while searchn and cryn for her...anyways after bout 2 hrs I finally found her but still I have just been a wreck..ANYWAYS..i started spotting but havent seen anything since...so i am hopng its nothing..but I am cramping bad....all the stress...and im worried..which is stressn me out more....I guess my big main question other than venting...is what can dr do for me for stress......my fiance suggested asking for somethhing like zanex...but ive never taken stuff like that before and i am nervous what can do to my baby...he thinks ill be fine but i want to make sure....i know the dr talked bout anit depressents for me but not til third trimester..which right now im only 21 weeks....Anyone have suggestions...i cant keep breaking down like this...and i cant handle the cramping anymore....and i cant keep pretending either..i just need advice and help....i dont want to take anything that will be too dangerous for my little baby but all this stress cant be good either.....