yup, in the same boat, due with No.4 in Nov 2012!
3 boys, and because this one was unplanned, I did want 4 but we agreed to stop at 3 or I would have done everything according to the Hazel Chesterman-Phillips book that I read a long time ago - for a girl.
I'm thinking I don't want to know at the next ultrasound - and just get ready for a boy, All the wives tales point to it being a boy, including me having testosterone fuelled rage - rather than crying lots...
Kind of feel cheated that while I am getting no.4 and I did freak out at merely having another one, that we can't afford. Still in denial at almost 16 weeks, and love the boys I have. I know I will be glad at the teen stage if it's another boy, but would love a girl baby. If we'd got ourselves straight financially over the next five years, with just the 3, I would have probably asked DH if we could look at adopting a girl.
Not going to start hoping, and while I am stressed at No4, and a fully 'blue' household, I also worry that with all my boys, I will eventually lose them to other women as they grow up and move away. Just a big ole worry wort!!! On the other hand, maybe 'God' or a higher power is telling me that my own failed relationship with my mother will just be repeated with a girl, so I am being protected (as is an unborn girl) from repeating this hurtful life-long non-relationship (not from lack of my trying to repeatedly please her...) Oh I haven't told her about it coz she'll just be negative and make me feel worse! ;-(
I do understand but I also don't like people reminding me that 'are you hoping for a girl', 'will you find out'... I probably won't so I don't get to show how I feel at this stage...