I am a proud mother of two amazing boys. 1st 6 years old, 2nd is 13 month old. The problem is that I still feel the need to have a girl. With my second pregnancy everything was so different, that I truly thought that it would be a girl. At the 1st ultrasound when I was told boy…you can all relate to my total gender disappointment. Today I would not trade him for the most beautiful girl in the world. However, I still want a girl.
After much talking and courage, my husband and I agreed to give IVF with PGD a try. In total I had 10 eggs fertilized of which, only two were girls. Beautiful baby girls and so we had them transferred.
Well after waiting through the 2 weeks of hell, we received word from the nurse yesterday 11-19-2009 that I was not pregnant.
I feel sad, defeated; hurt, cheated and I could go on….what will I do with these feelings and desires for having a baby girl of my own.
I’ve read a lot of the post on this site since I was pregnant with my 2nd baby boy and I always get so happy to see that most of you finally conceive the desire sex, I’m just not sure how you all can financially afford to do this over and over again. Emotionally, I would be willing to do it over and over until I got the baby girl. I do not mind the shots, medications or office visits. The goal at the end would keep me going. But my husband and I just can’t afford to do it again. Even if we could, what would you guys suggest, IVF/PGD again, MicroSort/IUI, not sure…I’m so confused…please help…or I will go insane!!