Are any of you....???

 It's not unheard of but do I think you should hold out hope? I must respectfully say, no, I do not think so. Here's the thing. IF you were to hear girl at your next u/s, would you believe it? Wouldn't it be worse to go from GD to elation only to find out in the end that it is in fact a boy? I don't know. To me that's too much of a roller coaster. I've BTDT. I paid for a private u/s at 17 weeks and was devistated to hear boy. At 20 weeks when my OB confirmed I was resigned to hear it. But by my 30 week u/s I would have been upset if he had changed to a she. So ultimately, you just have to work on moving past your disappointment and trust me I understand how hard that is. But holding on hope may just make it hurt even more. I'm sorry because I know this is not what you want to hear but false hope hurts and I don't want to do that to you.

I hoped for the same thing when I suffered from GD but I hope that you get what I got out of my second Ultrasound and that was the chance to enjoy looking at my baby on the screen instead of dealing with the shock that it was another boy. Instead I got to see him moving and waving and become my baby in front of me instead of this boy I didn't want. That ultrasound was s huge turning point in my GD and I hope you have the same experience.

 My ultrasounds are kinda too close together to really have time between to be ready for the next, to heal at all. Starting last Monday for at least 3 weeks that I know of consecutive Ultrasounds on monday to measure the cervix bcz its short. They need to see if its shortening more and make a decision on what to do. 

pixie97:

They need to see if its shortening more and make a decision on what to do. 

I've never heard of that. If you don't mind me asking, what could they do or what would their choices be? Sorry if you've posted this and I missed it or you don't want to talk about it.

Unfortunately, no. The u/s was crystal clear. The boy bits were VERY obvious, and I have the pictures to compare with dd's u/s, which clearly showed no boy bits. I would love to think there is a chance for another dd, but I am reality based and logical, and it would just make me feel worse.

FourCutiesOneLove:

pixie97:

They need to see if its shortening more and make a decision on what to do. 

I've never heard of that. If you don't mind me asking, what could they do or what would their choices be? Sorry if you've posted this and I missed it or you don't want to talk about it.

 

No, funny I've had three kids and never heard of it either! And with the first two I went into premature labor but they stopped it, no one ever measured my cervix. Didn't happen with my third. So I never heard of it. Anyhow if your cervix is short your are at higher risk for preterm delivery.  They say under 2.9 is think, but under 2.5 is risky and last week I was 2.1 and I was already a high risk pregnancy for other reasons. So I guess it can or does continues to get smaller. Now I'm unclear on this completely but I've been reading all week but you know how your cervix thins to prepare for dialation and labor? Well I think this is just premature thinning, but I could very well be wrong about that. The option in earlier weeks are a cerclage which is a stitch in the cervix to keep in closed that they remove at 37 weeks. I guess its controversial wether or not it helps. However my doc says I'm to far along for that, 21 weeks on Wednesday, so in a week or two they are talking complete bedrest for the rest of the pregnancy, my next ultrasound with the high risk ppl is monday my appointment is Wednesday with doctor and then I will know more. 

Well that sounds horrible. I'm sorry you're going through all of that on top of GD. I was on bedrest but only light from 31 to 34 weeks, then strict from 34 -37 weeks. I hope everything works out for the best though and you and the baby are ok. Atleast you got us to talk to if you get bored. I did alot of internet surfing, crocheting, watching TV, and sleeping.

FourCutiesOneLove:

Well that sounds horrible. I'm sorry you're going through all of that on top of GD. I was on bedrest but only light from 31 to 34 weeks, then strict from 34 -37 weeks. I hope everything works out for the best though and you and the baby are ok. Atleast you got us to talk to if you get bored. I did alot of internet surfing, crocheting, watching TV, and sleeping.

 

It sounds horrible to me too, although I joked tonight that maybe it was for the best considering yesterday I put away the groceries and found the ice cream in the fridge, and today when I put the chicken in the oven I did not look at the time, nor did I have a clue what time it was close to, coulda been 5, 6 but the point is I didn't realize it until it had been a "few" minutes meaning 5-50 lol, I just lost track of time. WHEW! 

Your right, the stress and commitment of  a high risk pregnancy on top of GD has been horrible, I mean I know it sounds mean but we all know how bad EGD can hurt but all I can think all of this for something I don't want this "boy" is already taking me from my girls. I understand stereotypical like so it would be ok if the girl took me away from my girls and unfortunately as Extreme as I am right now yes, thats how I feel I know its not right, but it is so. 

pixie97:

unfortunately as Extreme as I am right now yes, thats how I feel I know its not right, but it is so. 

Well I don't think there is much about GD or EGD that is "right" so your feelings are normal. I know I thought alot of the same kind of thoughts even though I didn't have a high risk pregnancy. GD is horrible but I can tell you it gets easier with time. I know thats hard to imagine right now but it is possible to be happy again. I never suffered EGD so I don't know your pain but I did suffer GD pretty bad. I looked back after having him and thought to myself that I couldn't believe I was so upset over this little boy that I wished away, who ended up being my little mini me that I never put down. I was so attached to that little boy when he finally came that he didn't crawl till the day he turned one because I never put him down. I hope you can find the same peace when your ds arrives and you can find some kind of relief from your EGD in the mean time. I'll be praying the rest of your pregnancy goes as easy for you as possible.

You know at this point I have not come around. I know if I don't I will choose adoption. But I have to say I don't want to hurt him, I just want him given what I cannot. So thinking of this high risk business, and the chance of him being premature and fighting for his life. I will just be guilty for not wanting him. And no matter if I'm better tomorrow (doubtful) that part will never change, I will always have had felt this way. 

Thanks I'll keep everyone posted for sure. This forum helps to vent about my very abnormal feelings and no they fit into a normal category called EGD! 

I am clinging to the hope that the tech was wrong.  Can I have some of that pink baby dust?  I was told boy at my ultrasound and Dh and I were both devastated. He didn't even want to talk about it at first. He's been able to get past it, saying well somebody will have to take care of it and love it.  In other words, there's nothing we can do about it so we might as well live with it so he's not exactly throwing a party.  My family, on the other hand, is all over the moon because of the news and a couple of them have made me feel even worse about my feelings with lectures of how things could be worse, I needed to be grateful that the baby is healthy, blah, blah, blah.  I wish the ones who are able would go on and have a little boy of their own so maybe they would leave my situation alone if they love little boys so much.  I know it may sound strange from someone like me who already has a little girl but I wanted to give her a sister.  I also know that some of  you were wishing for a boy.  I hope I haven't offended anyone.  I'm just really unhappy about this pregnancy since the tech said well it's a boy.  She just sucked all the joy out of this pregnancy for me with those four words.  Don't know if that was her intention or not but she did suck all the joy out of it.  We told her we were hoping for another girl and she was very quick to tell us her prediction. She didn't say how certain she was or anything.  I'm hoping she saw the cord or something.  I looked at the picture and neither DH nor I could see parts, boy or girl.  Actually, I remember during the u/s that the potty shot looked like a girl.  I changed OB's and my new OB may do another scan on me just to confirm for me one way or another.  I'm kinda scared.  I don't know if it would help me to have that confirmation or if it would make me even more depressed if it does indeed turn out to be a boy. 

I looked over my pictures again and STILL cannot see anything indicating either boy or girl.  I didn't see the classic turtle sign for boy or hamburger sign for girl.  The tech didn't give us anything but side shots.  No potty shots.  There's this one picture where she circled the legs and typed in it's a boy. 

I am the same way. I was told boy and was actually dealing with it until a lot of people looked at my u/s pics and said you can't tell either way. Now I am praying it could still be a girl. I posted the pics here and a lot of people guessed boy but others said the pics aren't clear enough to tell. So yes I know exaclty what you mean! I hope the tech was wrong and you get to see girl parts!

 I really understand the statement of all the joy being sucked out of you. Its horrible really. I feel no joy, don't want to shop, talk about the baby or anything. I'm horribly broken hearted and clinging dearly to the hope of them being wrong. I'm hoping they saw the cord, or there are these cases of swollen labia that just occurs when mothers hormones pass through or something like that. I've even looked up ultrasound images of swollen labia to see for myself what the techs can see. I know, I know I shouldn't but I do. I grasp to every bit of hope, and right now thats the only hope I have =(

 

Hope you ladies get what you want as well. I know it really hurts not to enjoy the process of growing a life inside of you, this is my 4th time and I'm shocked and saddened at my own loss of joy. Wish it was as easy as a switch, but it is not...