dream4purple: BFN, I'm still getting my heart together, this was my last chance, jany...
Oh my goodness, my heart aches for you.. I know how you feel, though I have one more cycle, I don't have much hope, after this last failure I am still trying to get my head straight, BFN was on July 16th...
How do we get over this intense yet insane desire for a daughter? I've thought about writing a letter to my non existent daughter and saying goodbye and how I love you though you don't exist but now its time to focus on your brothers who need me, but everytime I think about writing it I start bawling, crap I am tearing up as I write this sentence...
But how much more can be done, we have gone above and beyond what others can or will ever do.. We have spent an INSANE amount money on this, and really where does it end? Now which I never did I think about the money and what could have been done with it and for the first time I am nervous about how all these meds will affect me long term..
I am so sorry, you are not alone, I hope that you can pull yourselves together and cycle again(if you are not pregnant) or that we both find peace and contentment with our lives without a daughter.....