Swayed for boy but..

I'm almost wanting a girl??? I can't believe I just said that! Since I was old enough to imagine a family I pictured having boys, 3 to be exact. Had GD with both girls but really bad with dd2, acted terrible after our u/s with her. Ironically though, she cured my GD as well. I mean I still wanted a boy but wouldn't cry at seeing a family of boys or have that "it's not fair" feeling anymore. I swayed with the past 3 pregnancies the last two not making it. That made me realize I just wanted a baby and have made myself refuse to feel GD. But this past week everytime I look at baby names or nursery designs I don't even want to look at boy stuff. I'm don't feel like I'm refusing to look or think about it but it's like it hadn't even crossed my mind. I've got a few boy names on the list but when I say them or picture a baby I just picture a dd3. Ive looked a homecoming outfits pictured 3 girls playing together but I can't picture a boy, even when I try. Am I subconsciously preparing myself? Or do I not want another boy out of fear? Had anyone experienced this!? Just need some support or insight because my emotions are all over the place!! Haha! Oh and I don't feel sad either actually I feel pretty contented believe it or not! Or... Is this just what it's like to be pregnant and not have GD at all? Because I've never not felt it in over 5 years!!

Oh.. it happens to me as well.. after my 12 weeks u/s, after looking at a blurred scan i guessed a girl again.. and my heart cries.. and out of fear of any disappointment later i keep making up my mind for a girl child again.. whenever my 4 year old talks about welcoming a boy brother in december i keep telling her that sisters are better and keep counting positive points of having a girl child...

I totally understand, BabyBleux.  I swayed for a girl, but before I found out the gender, I kept picturing holding a baby boy.  I also imagined being out and about with my three little boys.  I really think what was happening was true acceptance in my heart if I were to have a third boy.  I say this because, I was really happy to hear Girl at my gender ultrasound, but I have been kind of mourning the third son I imagined having.  I don't tell anyone this, since I've been very open about my swaying and desire for a baby girl.  I haven't bought a single pink thing for the baby yet - something in me is resisting.  I've also had thoughts of having a fourth child and swaying for a boy!  Sometimes I think I'm losing my mind, because 2 boys and 1 girl has always been my dream family.  Sorry for rambling - just wanted to let you know that you're not alone by any means.

same here, after DD2 and my GD before she was born, i was not going to have GD again. I swayed for this baby but was completely prepared and happy for DD3. we had a name. we still havent discussed boys names. i sometimes still say "she" when i talked about the baby even though baby is confirmed a boy! for me it was really that i wanted to focus on having a healthy child, a sibling close in age with my daughters. when i found out it was a boy, i was not as excited as i thought i would be, but again, because i was cautious. Now that it has been confirmed again and again that he is all boy and that everything seems to be going great with this pregnancy, i can tell you that i am overjoyed! but i can NOT find any cute boys outfit lol. i think its great to be happy to be pregnant without GD or anticipation of GD. enjoy BB!

Thanks everyone!! My best friends said "what if you just dont have gd?" and you know, I think she's right. I think I'm just so happy about another baby, it took dh a LOT of convincing. Plus with two losses in a row I'm incredibly greatful. Thank you all for the support. I know that if it is indeed a boy I'll be over the moon, but I really feel like I will with a girl too!

i feel the same way :( i have 4 girls and 1 boy and itmakes me kinda sad to think about having another girl cause my lil man will be the only boy and that makes me feel bad for him........ i had an u/s done at 11 weeks 4 days and she said maybe girl because she couldnt see a scrotum so im trying to convince myself its a girl and trying to get rid of that disappoiinted feeling before i find out for sure!! either way i know ill love it but ive been feeling so sad!!