Tina, my personal definition of a saint is someone who can be truly
happy for you, when you have something they want very badly but can't
have themselves.
And as much as we all want to be, we are not saints, we are just
human. Sometimes we don't have the feelings we wish we had, we
have emotions we are not proud of. If you hold that inside, it
can turn into bitterness. I think if you recognize it, and try to
work through it, you are on the right path. Realize that is is a
normal emotion, and you don't have to feel guilty about it, but that
you shouldn't let it rule you, or let it come between you and your
family.