Just got my beta back @ 17dp5dt. 206. ARRRHHH I am going to lose my mind. I am SO frustrated with all of this. I am going to meet with a Consultant on Friday. I have no idea what they are going to tell me and assume they will have me 'wait it out' for a few more days/weeks IDK. This SUCKS :(
Lori emailed me yesterday afternoon to tell me that she had the results of my 3rd frozen GSN embryo that went back for re-testing. Well, it came back as a PERFECT XX!! It is also a
Hatching Blast! I am SO happy right now, I could cry .
So, out of my 11 embies that went to GSN, I had a total of 5 GSN normal XX embryos. I still can't believe it. Maybe this *will* be my cycle? Just in a FET.
My "Snowbabies" (as dh & I are calling them) are:
1 x Hatching Blast
1 x BB Blast
1 x Early Blast
The day we left LA, I had my DH take a pic of the building HRC is in so I can look at it and think of those little frozen embryos. If I knew how to post a pic I would attach it to this blog post.
I got my beta back today. 118 @ 15dp5dt. It is still rising. *Sigh* I go back again on Wednesday for another blood draw and ultrasound. If the hcg is still rising I will be referred to a specialist, whom I presume, will be discussing my options and next move.
I am so frustrated by this. I just need some answers.
I thought I ought to update my blog with the happenings of the past week. It has been a very tough week and I am left with all sorts of questions.
2dp5dt: I experienced much lower back pain and had cramping on and off.
3dp5dt: The cramping continued as did the dull lower back pain.
4dp5dt: The cramping became much worse and it felt like I was just about to get my period. I was really worried but spoke to a nurse who said that cramping was completely normal after IVF.
5dp5dt: We arrived back to the UK and I tested. BFN
6dp5dt: I didn't test this day but I felt 'pregnant' with many of the early symptoms I had with my last 2 pregnancies (DS & the ectopic).
7dp5dt: I tested again with a FRER and a tiny, tiny, shadow of a line appears around 12 hours after I tested. I only noticed as I held it up to a candle. I assume it is most probably an evaparation line.
8dp5dt: Still feeling crap so tested on a whim before I went to bed. A little pink line appears - only a sliver of a line.
9dp5dt: Tested again and yes, there is a second line. Sadly, I was not jumping for joy as I knew that a faint positive so late in the game rarely ends in a viable pregnancy.
I had my first beta draw later that morning and it came back at 33. Many tears as although it is positive, it is very, very low.
10dp5dt: Blue veins very noticeable all over my wrists, hands and chest. Feelings of nausea.
11dp5dt: I tested again and the second line was a little darker than the previous, but still very faint.
I had my 2nd beta draw today and it came back at 56. That little ray of hope: shattered. Although It did not double, it did increase. Sadly, it is looking more and more like another ectopic. I am feeling so angry and just so, so sad. I had 2 perfect opportunities at IVF, transferred a total of 4 XX embryos and my body, my fallopian tube, has let me down. Those little embryos wanted to stick, they wanted to implant, but my body let them implant in the wrong place. I am so angry. Why is this happening to me?