May 2010 - Posts
After my 3rd beta, it appeared things were not progressing as they should and it was assumed that I was most likely suffering from a blighted ovum. I continued to have beta draws and then went on to miscarry (or what I thought was a miscarriage) at 7 weeks.
As I am still being monitored, I had yet another beta draw today, and the number came back at over 15,000 (!!). An ultrasound has concluded that I do not have a uterine pregnancy and now the concern has fallen to an ectopic. I am so worried about this. I have been reading things on the internet about the dangers of ectopic pregnancy and I am scared. I just want this whole nightmare to end. I need closure.
I just got the call. It is all over. I am so, so sad 
ETA: My Beta number was 474 - it hadn't doubled but it *did* rise.
We are now back safely in the UK after our extended stay in California. I am going to London on Thursday for my 3rd Beta draw. I can not go earlier so I just need to wait it out. Right now I am feeling very, very tired and I have very sore boobs and tingly nipples. Also, I have sore gums - as I did when I was pregnant with my son. All good signs, but only the Beta will tell if things are progressing as they should. I am still getting positives when I test which is encouraging. We are continuing to pray for strong numbers.
Ok, I just got the call...... my beta doubled to 104, from 49.
I still don't know what to think. This business is so hard! With my son, once I saw that second line there was no talk of 'numbers' and 'doubling time' - I was pregnant and celebrating! IVF is a whole new world for me - and such a numbers game. I just wish I knew either way. Like my previous post, I am continuing to remain as positive as I can be but preparing for the worst.
In other news, I had a wonderful telephone conversation with Mom2RJA this afternoon! She is so sweet and kind and it was wonderful to finally speak on the phone.
I also want to thank eveyone here on IG for your continued support.