An emotional journey in order to get my little girl!
At my last two appointments I was 1cm and only 25% effaced. It was very disappointing last week to hear "nothing has changed". I have been very uncomfortable and have had pains from time to time. This has been the most uncomfortable pregnancy I've had. It is hard to feel pain throughout the week and not progress.
Finally today at my appointment I have made some progress!!!! I'm now a 3 1/2 and about 50-75% effaced. She said that she thought that I should have a baby this weekend. Boy, do I hope she is right! I had lots of back pain last night w/ crampiness in my lower abdomen but then when I sat up or walked around it would go away. Obviously this is not good for sleeping b/c it is hard to sleep standing up or walking around...lol! I
Today I feel like someone is sitting on my belly right underneath my boobs. Awful! I'm so miserable!!! I really hope that my little one will come soon. I'm so ready for her! With both of the boys I would have already been at home with them from the hospital so it is hard to be pregnant longer than I'm used to. I feel like a ticking time bomb!
I'm a former teacher & now stay at home mom to two ridiculously cute little boys. I am married to my best friend and have an amazing family of 4. Yet, I feel as if there is someone missing. My heart longs for my daughter.
The problem, how to get her? We spent over $20,000 on cycle #1 pgd/ivf and now I am cycling locally and doing a frozen embryo transfer.
We've said if this cycle doesn't work we were going to move forward with International adoption. I'm already 2nd guessing that plan b/c the longing to be pregnant has gotten the best of me. So, I really need to have this work so I don't have to come up with a plan b....I mean plan C.
****Update: So far Plan B is still on!!!! Baby on Board!!!!
*****Another Update: She's here!! Our family is now complete and I think about how blessed I am every single time I see her!