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Going through IVF/PGD in hopes of my DD

An emotional journey in order to get my little girl!

August 2009 - Posts

  • Weight....

     

    So, I had posted a while back about how mad I was about gaining weight. However 2 days before ET I did weigh at the gym to find that I had gone down to 134 but was mad that my gym card said that exactly one month before that particular weigh in I was 132!! But somewhere in the midst of those two weigh ins I was 137!

     Anyway, I went to my OBGYN when I had my bleeding scare and my "official" start of pregnancy weigh in there (at 7wks 1day) was 129.7 (I'm not rounding up!!). I think it is b/c I've been so stinkin sick.

    With my first I started off at 125 and with my 2nd I started at 130. So I'm just about on schedule! I think I gained 28 w/my first and 24 with my 2nd. So it pretty much made me end up about the same at the end of my pregnancy!  We will see how this one goes!

     

  • Bleeding scare!!!

    Holy cow! I was on a huge rollercoster the past couple of days. On Wed I went to the bathroom (Warning TMI ahead:) and when I wiped I saw a bunch of pinkish/redish blood, my heart sank & I began to cry. I wiped again and there was a little more. I could barely stop crying. I called my DH and got it out to him & eventually calmed down enough to call my dr. I was on pins & needles.

    I only saw a little bit of brown spotting after that for a couple of more times that I went to the bathroom but that was it. I went to the dr's office the following morning (Thurs) and got an U/S . Dh and I were so relieved when immediately saw a perfect little shrimp, perfect yolk sac, and a flashing heartbeat!!! I was soooo relieved!!! Sooooo thrilled!!! We were even able to hear it this time! It was 127.7 bpm. She was still measuring a little small but not enough to cause concern.

    The Dr. said everything looked wonderful! She doesn't know why the bleeding happened but that it wasn't from the baby! Whew!

    So I am now 7 weeks & 2 days. I am so happy that we got to see how much she has grown and were able to get some great u/s pics. The other 2 u/s were at Outpatient Imaging and they don't print pictures so DH took pictures on his cell phone and we went and printed them.

    So, everything looks great and I'm hoping for many more good dr. visits! My next appt is scehduled for Sept 10! I'll be 10 wks then.

  • Urghhhh...why did I wish Morning Sickness on myself

    Yes, I was constantly telling my DH how weird it was to not "feel pregnant" which translates to "not hanging my head over the toliet & feeling miserable for most of the day!". DH kept saying just enjoy it...maybe it is b/c it is a girl so it is different. Then WHAM! Yesterday the Morning Sickness fairy came and I have felt like total crap. I am so sick and don't want to eat anything but I get so hungry so I eat something that makes me feel more sick.  It is a terrible cycle. My house is now a wreck b/c the few hours I am at home I'm either napping while the kids are napping or laying around trying my hardest not to puke.

    Literally today I woke up and felt like I had an explosive hangover! Yesterday (day 1 of feeling like crap) I was secretly happy/relieved that I had my usual pregnancy symptoms but already at Day 2 I've had enough. I want to go back to the I'm pregnant but I can still function stage. I liked it so much better!

    I'm also so excited yet scared beyond belief about my u/s on Sat. I'm so scared that I might not see a heartbeat but so hopeful that I will. If I do it will be so wonderful!! For many reasons but besides knowing that the miscarriage rate goes way down is the fact that I can stop PIO shots & take a bath (as long as it isn't over 100 degrees!). How fantastic! My legs would be thrilled..they haven't had a good shave since my transfer. I just can't shave my legs in the shower that well. I don't know why!

    So, I'm going to sit here and try really hard to keep my dinner down. Ughhh...I hope this isn't like DS1 when Morning/all day sickness lasted 5 mo!!

  • Sac size

     

    http://www.brooksidepress.org/Products/Military_OBGYN/Ultrasound/1st_trimester_ultrasound_scannin.htm

    I have found comfort in this site! My sac measured 7.8 and this says a 5 wk sac measures around 6mm. So I don't get why I was told she was small. Feeling much better about all of this!!! I think I may still go to the U/S on Fri. Not sure if I can wait through an extra 4 days!!

  • 5 wks 2 day U/S-- LONG post!

    I'll include what I posted on Friday....and add some new stuff at the end... 

    My U/S was Fri  & I was hoping to hear that she measured 5 wks 2 days just as my due date would tell me I was but the measurements he put in came back "out of range" which meant it was too small to give an age. I was like WHAT? Then he told me the earliest it would say was 5 wks which made me worried b/c I am a couple of days over that. I'm not sure if it is a big deal to be a little under, I don't even know how much under I was. It sucks that my RE is out of town so I just had to go to "outpatient imaging". Urgghhhh.

    He said he saw one sac (yippi!) and that he saw the beginnings of a yolk sac forming & the beginnings of a fetal pole. He said it looked good from what he could see. Just the fact that it wasn't measuring 5 wks made me a little nervous. I don't know when the Dr's office will call but hopefully they can answer my question about the smallness of the sac. I'm just hoping this is what is supposed to be there for a 5wk 2day baby.

    So I decided to spend the rest of the night "googling" 5 wk ultrasound and it actually made me feel a lot better. One of the websites I saw was for a clinic and they said the 5 wk sac measured 6.5 mm & mine had measured 7mm. For some reason the tech said for it to "measure 5 wks" it would need to be 10 mm (I think). Anyway, after talking with a nurse (my nurse was also out!--urgh!!) she told me not to worry that it was important that things were inside of the sac & it was ok b/c they don't all meausre the same. I just feel like I would have felt better talking to my Dr. or if she would have just measured what I am.

    So, now I have to decide to have my 2nd u/s on Fri or on Tues. Fri it would be back at "outpatient imaging" b/c my RE is still on vacation and if it is on Tues I would be able to go to his office. The biggest thing is that I'm not sure I would be far enough along at the rate things are going to be able to hear the heartbeat which is why we are having this u/s.

    We decided that we would tell family once we had a heartbeat. My MIL's b'day is this weekend and we were going to put a sonogram frame in her gift bag and suprise the family at the b'day dinner. Now we are nervous that if we wait until Tues that we should scratch the b'day surprise. The problem is some people are coming in from out of town so we wouldn't be able to tell them in person if we didn't do it then. My DH doesn't want to have to spend the $ on another u/s b/c he thinks that we won't see the heartbeat so we will have to another u/s. He is more patient that me! I want to see if she has grown in a weeks time. I think even if I just saw growth I would feel better and more confident about telling the family. If I have to wait until Tues I'm not sure if I would feel as comfortable doing the b'day surprise!

    I'm going to call my nurse on Monday and decide what to do after I talk to her.

  • Tomorrow is Ultrasound Day!!!

    So this is the craziness of POASing. I've pretty much stopped b/c honestly I don't want to spend anymore $ on them and I'm almost out. The gross thing is...I still have them sitting on the tall area between the shower & the bath tub. My DH wants me to throw them away but they are like my little "trophies" ....my reminders that I am really pregnant after all!

    Tomorrow is my BIG u/s day! I have tried to jam pack this whole week full of activities to try to keep my mind off of it and am so happy that tomorrow is almost here. I pray that everything is alright b/c I am already so attached to her! I want my little seasame seed to grow!! (that is what one website told me about just how big she is...last week it was a poppy seed & now a seasame seed) I just don't want this to end. I want to be able to see her little face! So, add me to your prayer list! I need all that I can get!

     

  • Did she just call me pregnant?

    I have to schedule my 1st ultrasound for Friday. I am so excited to see the little "dot" on the screen!! I'm praying all goes well as I have really let it set in (I tried so hard not to!) that I am pregnant with my daughter!!!

    It was so funny b/c my RE is going to be out of town for 2 wks which just happens to be when I'm having both of my u/s appts. The nurse said I could go to radiology or to my OBGYN for the u/s since he wouldn't be in and I said "It's okay to just go to an OBGYN?" and the nurse said "yeah, you ARE pregnant!" I couldn't believe someone said that to me! She actually told me I was pregnant!!! It has been so secretive that sometimes I feel like I'm making the whole thing up!

    Like I said, I've definately fallen in love. I know she is in there & I pray that she is growing & thriving & will reach all of her milestones! Today when we were at the store I looked at all the moms with their daughters and thought "I'm going to be here shopping w/my daughter in 8 mos" Normally I just glare at them and participate in some self-pity but today was different! I felt like I had a little secret in my back pocket...Yeah, I've got 2 boys running around but YOU don't know I've also got a little girl in here!

    With that said, I just hope everything goes well! I feel like if we can get through these 2 weeks I will be able to have her FOR REAL! It is just killing me not telling anyone that I'm preggo!

    Also, just put a "ticker" in my signature. I was going to wait until the heartbeat but I just couldn't stand it anymore. I AM pregnant & I'm going to celebrate it!!!

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