AngelMae's hope for a daughter

May 2008 - Posts

• Beta 1501 and we saw our babies sac!

  U/S went well we saw a black dot... more like a black circle with a ball of white in the middle, The Dr said it was Good, only saw 1 though. I guess only one of our embies took, but the Dr wouldn't verify that he said it was too early to tell.  Only 5 weeks at this point, and beta was very good at 1501. I am cutting back on bothe progesterone and estoidal st this point soince my #'s are good, and I report back for b/w and u/s when I'm 6weeks. I think we are cooking with gas!!!!  Our baby girl is coming to fruition, all is right with the world:o)................ OK 6 weeks now, went in for b/w this morning and going back to see the Dr for an u/s this afternoon at 3:00pm.  I am still nervous, I pray we see her little heart beating... and my beta #'s are still good, as well as progesterone and estroidal levels are good.  Funny thing is I really don't feel pregnant, I know it is early, and my bb's are tingly, and I'm tired, but I don't really feel so sick,  guess that is a good thing, but it makes me a little nervous, like I should be sick or something.  I guess that is what I was used to with my other pregnancies....well I'm praying all goes well this afternoon, and I can come back and write that I saw my babies heart beating.... Posted May 28 2008, 12:46 PM by AngelMae with 1 comment(s)

• Beta 713 @ 14dp5dt!!!!!!

  I am so relieved, it more than tripled again!!!!  Now I go tomorrow for b/w and an u/s, I am praying we see something.  I was told by the nurse not to expect to see a heart beat, that we should see a black dot, it is the black dot sono.... I just would feel better if I see something.  I feel like every day is a hurdle, (OK I made it through today, I'm one more day pregnant than yesterday), is it going to be like this the whole time?  I guess I'll breathe easier once I'm past the 1st trimester?  I hope so.  I just can't wait to enjoy this pregnancy, it will probably be my last.  So I want to relish every part.  Every so often through the worry my happiness can't control itself and I realize this is it!!! This is what you have been waiting for Tam, You have finally had your prayers answered... And it feels GOOD! Posted May 20 2008, 06:27 AM by AngelMae with no comments

• 2nd beta 197!!! Yay!

  OK we are on our way, I am so happy I can't decribe it.  First to be pregnant after trying this high tech route for the past year, I was beginning to think I was infertile.  then I thought about it, no worrying if this pregnancy will bring me my little girl, I know!!!!, it is so nice to know I am pregnant with our daughter, I am so at peace with all of this it is so surreal.  I can't wait for my belly to grow and to feel her move. I can't wait to hold her in my arms and kiss her little newborn face and smell her, I love newborn baby smell!!!! I can't wait to see her.  I keep thinking of names, I have had so many over the past 15 years, I am so confused at what one to pick.  I have time for all that I just need to take it easy and enjoy having my baby girl grow inside of me.  I feel like I'm pregnant for the first time all over again. I want to tell the world, yet I know we will wait until the 1st trimester is behind us. Thank You God for answering my prayers!!! And thank you IG family for giving me the support and encouragement I needed to see this through. I am pregnant with my daughter!!!!!!! Posted May 17 2008, 06:42 AM by AngelMae with no comments

• betas back at 58

  OK I poas  again while waiting for the Dr to call with my results, line sooo much darker and I feel really preggo today, the really sore bb's and the low back pain, and yes even nausea, or is it nerves that is making me sick to my stomach. OK I expected that # to be close to 100, I am a little nervous, but I know I should just take it easy, in my heart I feel this is it!!!!!!    I really really do, I  am going to have a DD in Jan!!!!  I think I am afraid to be happy, I still am nervous, ugh if it is not one thing it is another, the #  eggs, the # that  fertilized, the # of  girls, I am so sick of worrying about #'s, I am feeling a bit sad because I thought I might have 2 dd's, and with a # like 58, I'm thinking we may have lost one of them.  OK in the back of my mind, I do know with DS#4 I had low beta #'s 15dpo, and my DR just said don't worry about it you are just recently  pregnant, very early, but none the less pregnant, and I never gave it another thought, I just figured I was preggie, and let nature take it's course.  So I am going to do that now, I am going to stop worrying about #'s and focus on my baby. Bring on the beta Fri my little girl and I are ready to set those #'s soaring!!!!!!! Posted May 14 2008, 09:22 PM by AngelMae with 2 comment(s)

• Day of beta, mixed feelings

  I sit here sooo nervous this morning, I couldn't wait for this day to come, especially after the hpt, showed me some lines, but now feeling very nervous.  I want high #'s, I need for this to work!!! I think I'm preggo, but I am so scared the #'s will not go up, or I will have another chemical... I am so trying to be positive, but I am scared to death. I let go this cycle, I relaxed and trusted,  I didn't get the fert results, but the fact our only 3 were girls, well that blew me out of the water, I'm still in shock.  They were all highest quality embies, so they have to take ...right?  In my heart I say yes, but my head knows all too well that is not the case, as I watch friends on this board put back good embies, yet they get stung by that damn BFN.  It doesn't make sense!!  I also feel a pang of guilt if this does work for me, and why not for them?  I have been in that place and it is so hard, I don't want anyone to feel it.  It is so hard! Ok I need to focus and tell my embies I need High #'s babies!!!  Come on body produce that hcg!!!!  I know I probably won't relax until I'm holding my baby(s) in my arms, but I think if I had some really high #''s it would make me feel a little more at ease.   OK we are going for the high #'s I have one hour until b/w, and another long 6 to 8 hrs of waiting for the call........... Posted May 14 2008, 06:17 AM by AngelMae with 1 comment(s)